Every New Beginning...

We decided to try a midwife and I had started to seriously doubt that decision. I was 41 weeks and 1 day pregnant and very anxious about this baby making her appearance. I was tired of the pitying looks and comments from Gabe’s bus drivers and branch members. I was tired of feeling like a hostage to an unborn child. I was tired of feeling anxious and coming up with back-up plans for if she came at night or during the day. I was tired.             I woke up the morning of May 15, 2017 and said to the baby, “Alright, you are done, you are coming out today!” Then proceeded to walk 2.5 miles, take my evening primrose oil capsules, and various other wives tale, natural (excluding castor oil), labor inducing remedies. I climbed into bed that night feeling frustrated. I had had no contractions despite everything I tried. I felt like my body was broken. I kept having thoughts about my other children’s labors. I was induced with both of them and maybe my body just didn’t know how to go into

We've been in our townhome for almost a year. It has flown by. I was reminded today of this fact by the notice we received on our door today reminding me that if I want to stay I will need to sign a new lease and if I don't want to stay I have to give them 60 days notice. If I want to stay my rent will go up. I knew this was going to happen because it happens everywhere but my question is: do the rent hikes ever stop? Doesn't it make more sense to reward people who stay and choose not to vacate, especially people who pay early every month, who don't cause problems with their neighbors and are overall good tenants that a landlord would like to keep? This is not the only instance where this occurs. Health insurance companies up their rates every year. I know lots of companies that change insurance year after year because it is cheaper to start over somewhere else than to stay with an insurance company. Why are these companies getting financially penalized for sticking ar

Today it finally happened. I lost Gabriel. We were headed out to go walking a trail near our house. Aubree and I took one way around a building and Gabriel took the other. I figured we would just meet up one the other side. When we got to the other side, he wasn't there. He had vanished. I asked Aubree to wait at the playground just in case he went there looking for us. I wandered around the complex briskly looking for my little non-verbal son. There were many people at the pool so I asked them if they had seen him. He would have had to walk really close to the pool the way he went around the building, someone had to have seen him. No one at the pool saw him. It has now been about 10 minutes since I have seen him. I called Randy, his phone went straight to voicemail. I called my mom and she sent my dad to come help look for him. I tried Randy again and he called dispatch for me. The people at the pool had joined the search. They offered to stay with Aubree while I continued to look

The straw broke last night I am going to throw two cents in the ante pool. Let's talk about The Church of Jesus Christ and being gay. Why would God say that children of gay parents cannot become members of the church? Did you know that it is not just gay parents that keep kids from joining the church? Children of polygamist families must be 18 and have a meeting with a member of one of the 70. Well, why? A close friend related this experience to me; "I told my parents that I was going to get baptised into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and they basically told me that they would have to disown me to stay in good standing of their religion. At 19, I was faced with the decision to abandon my family to do what I felt was right or let everything that I had felt, die." Why 18 you ask? Because  God is all about families, He would rather not have any more contention in the home. When a person is a ward of their parents, it is up to the parents to make decision le

Well, life is ever picking up. I took Gabe in for a doctors visit last month because he was that kind of sick that just doesn't get better. While I was there the doctor referred me to Early Intervention because Gabe doesn't speak. We went to the initial testing shortly after the doctors appointment. The test results we got back say that Gabe is communicating on a 10 month old level. They also said that it might be a good idea to have him tested for autism. While he will look you in the eye and smiles a lot his social interactions with peers and adults is very closed, like he doesn't know how to play with anyone else. It is a potential place for us as a family to deal with. Our first visit with Early Intervention is on Monday. We'll just see how it all plays out and hope for the best. Randy will start a new job on Monday also. It is another R&D position at the JBT Aero Tech company in Ogden. He is excited and I am excited for him. There are a lot of good thing

We no longer live in Price. Last Monday, Randy was fired by Shep's and Tuesday we decided it was time to leave Price. There are many things I could say about the whole thing but I will just leave it at, I did cry leaving Price but they weren't tears of sorrow. I have never hidden my dislike of the area but I didn't realize what a relief it was to know that I didn't have to stay. Our house is for sale through a realtor because we aren't there to show it. If it could sell this summer, that would be awesome for me. I do know that Heavenly Father has His own plans and that whatever happens it is for my bettering. If there are any inquires about the house call JuNette Terry with Trails End Realty. We moved to Ogden. We are living with my parents with the hope that the house will sell in six months and see where we are then. There are lots of decisions to be made as well as changes in store for our family. I want to thank everyone who has helped us get this far. Thank y